Prayers about Jobs Needed

This year has been an interesting one so far. Loss of our pet, Feliz,due to health concerns and costs, she was put down.

Downsizing in schools with teachers, so I haven't been getting the sub jobs I've needed the past week. Waiting and decision making on where to apply next and trying to take it all in.

These things are surrounded by the good news of Ralph and his mom recovering their rings, something small amidst all the other major concerns going on.

Still feeling like I'm not over the loss of our child, Blessing, as everyone else just moves on and has kids easily, it seems. I try not to think about it. The other day at church I couldn't avoid it. Someone asked me to sign a card for someone who had just had a baby, not another one. I said no I hadn't signed it when I was asked and next said, no I didn't want to either. Ralph I'm sure thought I was being rude, or just speaking my mind, but there was no way to avoid the issue. I've even avoided singing with our class on Sundays to avoid the issue of pregnancy. (Also, my former sister-in-law)- still thinking about that one. She divorced her husband, and was pregnant before the wedding, insurance baby and since has another one. No wonder I can understand the book of Psalms so well, life seemed so unfair to King David as well. Why do those who want their own way, always get what they want.

Now, I'm making decisions, but the online game Word Twist seems easier to deal with at times. Going for a walk, receiving cards from friends and e-mails of a fun nature, seemed to bring me some encouragement.

Going back to bed on days Chantel goes to school, 5 days of the last 6 hasn't been very encouraging. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers on the decisions and things I/we are dealing with at this time!