Thanks for the Friendship I Have with you, Jesus!

Thanks for the Friendship I Have With you, Jesus!
By: Chris Ann Schultz

Thanks for the friendship, I have with you, Jesus!
You are the only one, who understands what I'm going through,
Who understands and can give me, my heart's desire.

You are the God of the Universe.
You are the Lord of my heart and my life.
You are my very best friend.

You long for me to come to you.
You long for me to spend time with You.
You long for me to trust and put my faith in You.

You know my future.
You know the future of our family.
You know, if we will ever have another child, this side of Heaven.
You are at work.

I trust You.
I praise You.
I worship You.
I thank You.
I Love You!


1/31/10- written in response to No Wonder They Call Him the Savior by: Max Lucado. Thoughts about Jesus disciple, John. Also, my thoughts about our family. :-)

Your prayers are felt

My friends your prayers are felt

by: Chris Ann Schultz

My friends, your prayers are felt.
Each day I rise and feel like I can talk to God freely.
My friends, your prayers are felt.
Each day I can accomplish things that I couldn't the day before.

My friends, your prayers are felt.
Each day as I feel less physical pain than the day before.
My friends, your prayers are felt.
Each day as my body seems to be going back to normal rather quickly.

My friends, your prayers are felt.
Each day as I read your kind words and sentiments in cards and online
notes.
My friends, your prayers are felt.
Each day as I can do the things I need to accomplish, without much
thought.

My friends, your prayers are felt.
As I prepare to see a doctor regarding future pregnancies.
My friends, your prayers are felt.
As I know which doctor to see, as a result of your suggestions.

My friends, your prayers are felt.
Please keep them coming.
As I reflect and pray, each day.
My friends, keep on praying. Thanks.

What a week- Haiti and the Loss of our Child

This past week has been emotionally draining, news reports of a 7.0 earthquake in the country of Haiti. Realizing a group from our church, Souderton Mennonite was down there and we weren't sure how far the devastation had traveled. Waiting a least a day to hear that, Praise the Lord, no one had been hurt. All this, just one day after we lost our 3rd child, by miscarriage, Joy Schultz, on 1/11/10.
It occurred the same day as my doctor appointment, which confirmed that I had truly lost the child, we were so happy to be carrying. Now, once again, we are waiting for Heaven to see not 2, but 3 of our children: Blessing, Patience, and Joy Schultz. God has his reasons, and we will have to wait to hear them, I'm sure. It's explaining things to Chantel, that is most difficult. She just doesn't get it, when everyone else seems to have brothers and sisters and she's just waited so long. She really wants to help care for a brother or sister. She's prayed, she's drawn pictures of Mommy with a baby and an umbilical cord, too.
At my appointment last Tuesday, the doctor did ask if I had a specialist I would like to see, for help with future pregnancy. I didn't have the name, but I described the person to her, where she had worked and where she worked now. It was the same person, who was recommended by my friends Judy and Cathleen, (one the Dr. and the second, the location where she worked). It seems to me like God has been orchestrating this process.
Today I felt better about things, first, due to less physical pain. Second,I experienced less other issues, than I've dealt with all week. Third, I finally was able to call the doctor's office and found that our insurance will cover our appointments. All I need to do is contact my primary care doctor for a referral for additional appointments, but Dr. Pagan's office (Stoneridge OBGYN) referred me for the original appointment. So, I feel like we are heading in the right direction.
I appreciate your continued thoughts and prayers on our behalf, in the weeks ahead, and the time comes when we remember, what would have been the birth date of Patience Schultz, February 15th. Also, that the doctor does the right tests, bloodwork and asks the right questions. We really don't want to go a taking drugs route to solve these issues. Maybe something natural can be used. So, lots of concerns, but we know God is in control and He has the answers, we just need to ask, and to listen.
Back to Haiti, we just heard news today, that our group landed in Florida, and will be flying home in 3 groups: one tonight at midnight, one tomorrow afternoon, and one tomorrow night. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers, on our behalf and on the behalf of the people in Haiti and who has returned from Haiti.
God has been at work this week, and continues to work toward our future good.

Our miscarriage # 3 confirmed

Yes, today was the day, that the ultrasound confirmed that I miscarriage our third child, "Joy Schultz". Here is the poem I wrote to express to my child, how much he or she will be missed.

"Joy"

By: Chris Ann Schultz

I miss you, Joy, child of mine.
I dreamed, I held you in my arms.
I miss you, Joy, child of mine.
I can't believe that you are gone.

I never saw your picture.
I heard that you were there.
I knew you were inside me.
I kept you in my prayers.

Now, I know that I miss you.
I know, I cannot hold you.
I know, I cannot kiss you.
I know, I'll have to wait.

For now, enjoy each day in Heaven above.
You're with God; sit on Jesus lap.
He's your maker, and He will care for you.

We know you will be fine there.
You will never be sick or hungry.
We can't wait to meet you.
For now, enjoy life with Jesus and your brothers or sisters-
Blessing and Patience.
I'm sure you'll meet them, too.


We all love you so much!
Chantel really misses you.
She really wants to hold you, love you and feed you.
We look forward to meeting you in Heaven some day!

Love,

Mommy

How about "Joy Schultz"

When we find out officially tomorrow, I just found out the name Joy, which means rejoicing, can be a name for a boy or a girl. We are rejoicing, just at the fact that I was able to have another opportunity to experience pregnancy!

So, at this moment, "Joy Schultz", will be the name of the child, we miscarried, today 1/11/10. I will know more, officially, tomorrow.
Thanks for your continued thoughts and prayers on our behalf. ♥

A new name

Looks like tomorrow, I will be asking a lot of questions.
Looks like tomorrow, I will be hearing a lot of information.
Looks like tomorrow, the bad news will come officially,
that I am no longer pregnant. I'm pretty sure it's happened
already. That's when the tears and hugs came today. Glad Ralph and
Chantel were home with me at that time.

Also, I will need to start a new memory book of poems.
I will need to record the dates- due date and loss.
Then, I will need to think of a special name for the 3rd child,
which we will meet in Heaven someday!

Thanks for everyone's thoughts and prayers on our behalf, especially, since
this loss was so close to our other one, (7/20/09- Patience Schultz)
Now, 1/11/10, ____________ Schultz ??? I'm still thinking about it.
The good news is, that in Heaven, God will give our child a new name, that is special to him or her. How cool is that! They are so lucky to spend time with God.
What a great parent and He can care for them, so much better than, we ever could.
Yet, we will still miss them. Now, I have 3 reasons to really want to go to Heaven to meet Jesus some day!

My dream- a distant memory

Why does my dream seem to be such a distant memory?
Maybe do to the signs of miscarriage, I seem to be experiencing once again.
Today has been a rough day, since this afternoon, I've been trying to nap with Ralph by my side, but I couldn't sleep. Only tears seemed to come, as it seems, I'm on my way to experiencing another loss of a child, that I will never see this side of Heaven. That's 3 in Heaven and one here, if I were keeping score.
I guess God really needs them more than I do. It's just so hard to wait. The excitement always ends way too soon. I always feel like I'm disappointing Chantel and Ralph, who would really love to have another member of our family.

I still don't know what the doctor will say, I just need to call tomorrow and see what they will recommend, waiting until Tues. appointment or going some time on Monday. It's all in God's hands the response and what will happen. Also, not sure how it will affect Chantel's school day as well.

Ultrasound and First Visit

Last Monday, I received a lot of questions. I heard the words, viable pregnancy. I saw the doctor cross her fingers, like we are hoping for the best.
So, this week, has been a week of prayer and waiting. Oh, yes, and I asked for a picture, but didn't get one of the ultrasound yet.
Praying that Monday's ultrasound, shows everything going well for my pregnancy. As a friend from church wrote in their e-mail to me this week,
"God is in control!" That's been my focus this week. The doctors and ultrasound technicians, know what things look like to them, externally, but God is at work behind the scenes. He knows what will happen. He knows if my child is a girl or a boy. He knows what my child will be when he or she grows up. He knows what day my child will be born. He is in charge of my life, and the life of my child. All I need to do is trust Him.
One positive thing that happened to me this week, as I wait, was a dream I had. I was holding our baby, which I believe was a boy. I saw him rolling around a lot, and I had a chance to feed him. So, it was a very wonderful moment and I felt very happy when I awoke.
Thanks for your continued prayers for us. Today, according to the ultrasound, I should officially be at 6 weeks and 7 days or 7 weeks on 1/10/10. Since, Monday 1/4/10- was 6 weeks and 2 days along by the picture, only 5 days off of my calculations.
Praying and waiting for continued good news for this pregnancy! ♥

I am Pregnant :-)

The excitement of the out with the old and in with the new. The year seems to be off to a good start. 12/23/09- by home test, I found out officially that I was pregnant. Then, on 12/28/09 and 12/30/09 I had blood work done, checking my HCG levels. The good news was both days the levels went up and showed about where I should be. Then, on Monday 1/4/10 I am to have my first ultrasound, yay! Pictures, I love those. Then, 1/12/10 is my first appointment with the doctor at 8 a.m. We are all very excited and praying for things to go smoothly for child number four!

We have Chantel age 7. Then, we have Blessing (4/20/05) and Patience 7/20/09, in Heaven, to meet someday, and now one on the way. God is good, in so many ways! We continue to look forward to see how things come together for this child being a part of our lives. Chantel's already practicing to be a big sister, with my friend Cathleen's twins. She did a wonderful job on Monday, 12/28/09- she held and fed both of them! ♥ We are so proud of our big girl, Chantel!

Happy New Year everyone! We appreciate your thoughts and prayers on our behalf.