Why does my dream seem to be such a distant memory?
Maybe do to the signs of miscarriage, I seem to be experiencing once again.
Today has been a rough day, since this afternoon, I've been trying to nap with Ralph by my side, but I couldn't sleep. Only tears seemed to come, as it seems, I'm on my way to experiencing another loss of a child, that I will never see this side of Heaven. That's 3 in Heaven and one here, if I were keeping score.
I guess God really needs them more than I do. It's just so hard to wait. The excitement always ends way too soon. I always feel like I'm disappointing Chantel and Ralph, who would really love to have another member of our family.
I still don't know what the doctor will say, I just need to call tomorrow and see what they will recommend, waiting until Tues. appointment or going some time on Monday. It's all in God's hands the response and what will happen. Also, not sure how it will affect Chantel's school day as well.
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