Processing it all

This week, I am processing so much. The bloodwork I am waiting to hear back from, for all the new tests, to see how ready my body is for future pregnancy, and to see what it will take to get Ralph and I ready. That's not even the emotions we've felt, just the physical part of it all.
I've actually gone to my first regular school class, to teach, not for a special teacher, that sees students for a few minutes at a time and moves on. So, it felt good to be in charge of one group of students for the day, somewhat normal. I was even observed by the school's principal and the class was working quietly. So, it felt good.
Also, I'm still getting blood drawn and awaiting continued results from my HCG, levels. That's the hormone in pregnancy that elevates in a major way to show that things are progressing normally. Well my level dropped from 8,000 or more near the end of December, to 72, on 1/26/10. Today, I had to take another test to see if it has gone down to the number 5, which is considered, normal or negative- meaning I'm not pregnant. The hard part about the continued bloodwork, is answering the questions from the Gyn nurses, everytime they call. I always think they expect me to be surprised. It causes me to explain myself, which reopens the wound and the pain, over, and over again.
Currently, I'm waiting for my body's cycle to return to normal. That will mean a week of testing to see certain things, concerning how my body, internally is working. I will have my fibroid checked through this procedure, best I understand. It has grown since my pregnancy ultrasound on January 4th, of 5 cm., to Jan. 26th, ultrasound of 6 cm., so it is a concern. I was told, it could compete with the blood supply of my body, that the baby should be getting. So, it may need to be removed.
Things that make me feel more confident. I'm currently taking more folic acid, 3 mg, more per day, totaling 4-4.2 mg. I will be suggested to take Heprin from day one of my pregnancy, that was on my concern list. Clotting levels are being checked, there were more tests out there. Yes, I knew there had to have been. The fibroid concern, etc. These things which I discussed with the endocrinologist, made me feel heard, and understand, and cared for. All the things I need to feel right now. Loved and prayed for have been covered, thanks to you, all my friends!